HI🩷 if you wonder why I disappeared for a while this is the reason. I recorded this video on the day I left social media because I wanted to explain what was happening in the moment & not have my future self (who feels a lot better) explain what happened back then (I hope this makes sense). first of all - obviously this is social media so the hate is always gonna be there, but I needed to step back to really analyze why I was dealing with it by trying to please everyone when that’s literally impossible. I know it came across sudden but for me it was a very “I have to do it now or it will never happen” type of situation & I wiped my accounts so that I simply wouldn’t have the option to come back & look at comments/opinions. I decided not to announce my departure for that very same reason - to not be able to come back & look at comments/opinions. some people will agree with this decision & some people won’t, but for this to be sustainable for me long term I had to listen to my intuition. I gave myself 6 months to figure out what I wanted & how I could navigate social media in a healthier way, turns out 4 months was the right amount of time for me, but I’m happy I gave myself longer so that I had the option to figure this thing out without the pressure of having to return. I have missed you all immensey & I am extremely excited to create in a way that feels authentic to me & who I am. if you want to tag along for the ride - awesome, and if not - thank you x a million for the support you’ve shown me & my family over the years. I am truly forever grateful for you all & super stoked about this new chapter!🩷
feeling so incredibly grateful to be able to continue moving my body throughout my pregnancy & not taking a single workout session for granted. hopefully I’ll be able to keep going until the very end like I did with Sunny, but I’ll definitely be listening closely to my body (& my doctors of course)🏃🏼♀️💨🤰🏼
I’ll be the first to say that I find dressing my bump in the second trimester really challenging. I know it’s just a season of life that lasts a short period of time & I know my babies are so worth the overthinking that comes with my body drastically changing in such a short period of time, but I do think it should be ok to say out loud that it’s hard because it really can be a bit of a mental battle sometimes🫂🤍
I dont even know where to start when it comes to looking back on 2024. I think we had this idea in our heads where we thought life would be turned upside down with a baby - but not to the extent it was. all of a sudden everything was about him & navigating our relationship, our jobs, the renovation project alongside cluster feeding, postpartum hormones, sleep regression, reflux & a completely new human was way more challenging than we had imagined. we had to get to know him - of course - but we also had to get to know ourselves and eachother all over again. looking back we had so many laughs, so many incredibly sweet moments, such an amazing launch into parenthood, but in the midst of everything I felt so overwhelmed & finding back to Julie took a long time. I am so grateful for 2024, for the growth, for our family, for our friends, for the experiences, the challenges, the wins, the losses & the laughs. I am so grateful to be Sunny’s mum, I am so grateful to be Camilla’s wife, I am so grateful to be pregnant with little brother & I am so grateful to have found a version of myself that is by far the most confident, happy & content I’ve ever been. here’s to 2025🤍
recorded & edited end of july 2024👶🏻💉 “our IVF journey for baby number two has officially begun!! it feels like yesterday we did our first egg retrieval😭👩🏻🤝👩🏼” I remember this day so well & I remember feeling so excited & scared at the same time. I was scared that I was gonna have to stop breastfeeding to be able to do a frozen transfer/get my cycle back on track & I was a little scared to go back into the IVF bubble too.
filmed & edited mid august 2024💉👶🏻 I will never get over Camilla’s face when I called her & told her my uterine lining had thickened up on its on & we were embryo transfer ready!!🍟
recorded & edited end of july & beginning of august 2024👶🏻💉👩🏻🤝👩🏼 “if there’s anything we’ve learned from our previous IVF journey it’s that getting your hopes up & being disappointed is a part of this roller coaster ride & THAT’S OK, it just means that it matters to you! we’re gonna give my body the time it needs, but I’m not gonna lie - both @camillalor & I are so hopeful for next month already😂”
finding out our embryo transfer had worked👶🏻👩🏻🤝👩🏼❤️ I don’t know if you can tell (😂) but I was SHOCKED. we used 3 transfers to get pregnant with Sunny & I was not expecting our first transfer this round to stick AT ALL. real tears of joy looking back at this🥹 (video from early september 2024)
I am so excited to finally share this very very special vlog with you guys🥹 our embryo transfer - the day little brother started growing in my uterus. we will forever be grateful to Medicus for making all our dreams come true & we are so blessed to live in a country where we, as a lesbian couple, are able to start & grow our very own family❤️🏳️🌈 (recorded & edited end of august 2024)
we went to London last month & obviously we had to try some toddler friendly activities! really recommend the twist museum - Sunny (& Cam & I) absolutely loved it 👶🏻🇬🇧❤️
recorded & edited end of august AHH😭👶🏻💉 looking back at this makes me so emotional for some reason, it honestly feels like yesterday we transferred baby brother & the feeling the day before a transfer is just a mix of nerves & excitement & hope & fear & honestly one of the weirdest feelings ever